My Story by Katlego Mothibi

I am Katlego Mothibi, a single mother living with my mother who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I live in Atamelang Township near Delareyville in North West Province. As a black South African born in the 90s, discussions about mental health were scarce. They often seemed to be dismissed as excuses for bad behavior or crazyness, in my case, an indicator of an unloving parent. However, my journey with the Catholic Mental Health Ministry (CMHM) has opened my heart to new possibilities and understanding.

Growing up, the word "mental health" carried little weight in our community. When confronted with my mother’s diagnosis, my initial reaction was to conduct a simple Google search for answers; I found no empathy or real understanding. Instead of fostering a path to healing and improving our relationship, the stigma surrounding mental health merely compounded my feelings of hurt and confusion. Lacking empathy for her condition, I fell into the belief that my mother hated me, a belief that fueled my own feelings of hatred towards her.

Experience with CMHM
The CMHM is actively bridging the education gap regarding mental health at-the Society. It addresses the cultural misconceptions that often associate mental health issues with spiritual calling or cultural beliefs. Through the ministry, I came to realize that my mother's actions were not a reflection of her feelings toward me. It offered me the insight that perhaps, just maybe, my mother doesn’t hate me; she is struggling with a condition that complicates her ability to express love.

My experience at the ministry provided a supportive environment where I could share my struggles and express the pain I felt. I faced the harsh truth that while there is still work to be done, there is hope for a brighter future. The supportive community helped me see that my feelings of resentment can transform into understanding.

Personal Transformation
While there is a long journey ahead for both my mother and me, the CMHM has illuminated a path forward. I find myself still working through a lot of hurt and lack of empathy, but the ministry has given me a glimmer of hope. It has helped me understand that my mother’s struggles do not define our relationship. Even though healing may take time, the efforts of the CMHM inspire me to believe I can rekindle love for my mother one day.

Conclusion
Participating in the Catholic Mental Health Ministry has profoundly impacted my life. It has fostered an environment of empathy, understanding, and hope. I am grateful to have discovered a community that actively works to enlighten minds about the complexities of mental health, especially within our cultural context.  

Acknowledgments
I would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to Atamelang Parish Mental Health Ministry Coordinator (Mr Mpiwa), then 88Parish Priest Father Reverend Tadeo and Dr Melese and the entire team at the Catholic Mental Health Ministry. Your dedication to fostering mental wellness is a beacon for individuals like me, navigating the intricate relationship between love and mental health.